#360

Almost three months in this year and one of my first favorite memories by far and not just exclusively from this is year tripping on mushrooms in my living room with a friend who was sticking herself into our sofa while we tried to figure out what this weird NUTS fanzine poster is supposed to be that hangs on my wall and that scared look on my flat mate’s face because he was our lookout. Poor guy at one point we pretended we trip that he is made out of cheese and we will fucking eat him. Fun times. He did not end up in a fondue. 
How much do we have to wait? The new PISSED JEANS is so good but it came out at Sub Pop just as BEACH HOUSE did. Another band I love but for different reasons. We can love bands like the KINKS and such cause time made it irrelevant to care about their economic surroundings. They made money and probably in some fancy drug daze they have treated women shitty or beaten the shit out of boys on expensive hotels. And yes Kinks never said they are associated with punk thus they never really backstabbed anyone. Just as Obama never said he is punk he just sounds too close to a HAVE HEART song filled with esoterical bullshit. Still we blame him. But my friend was right Honeys sounds like the agony of a heroin addict who is choking in his own puke on a burning mattress. I know filthier records for sure but it’s just one that you feel that’s fine enough. It’s a record that cleans all the other dirt or just puts them under the rug so you don’t care about it. It’s filth that covers treasure. And it is set in an office environment. Hope someone will explain that this is total corporate bullshit and as Family Guy makes racism kinda ok and funny or decreasing it to a level of not such a big deal because it’s a part of our everyday life and personalities thus shoving it down in our throats Pissed Jeans’ rants against having an office job just making us believe it sucks but since now you can relate to it this could help you then because it doesn’t suck that much cause after all you can tell yourself ‘wow this is me as well and me is good songs after all’. In a way this makes it easier to me to find a job where I don’t have to swallow dust all day and be in cold. So maybe they have evil intentions but for me they just coated sugar on shit and I believe it’s marzipan. I could just think about from a CRO MAGS song now I’m turning my life into a Pissed Jeans song. But my friend who just started working at a company where she has nothing to do all day just stare and look busy, she say it’s the worst. Don’t know hopefully will find out. All I know is that lately I’m hooked on food porn what I watch for eating veggie filled sandwiches and I have the desire again to buy records and I just bought a REALLY RED lp for like 40 dollars which was basically a good deal still I rather buy music than actual records so it is a 30 year old oval shaped plastic thing on my shelf being more worthy with every day passes by but I felt good when the music was blasting and it felt like the price was fair cause this record is that cool. Actually I bought the record on the same day we took mushrooms. I paid for my fandom, for the music not for the time it has been existing and not for how rare it is but for that now I feel even with them. Still it’s a lot of money especially here, especially for me. But anyway. Luckily it seems I will receive some free music in the upcoming months so let the money roll. Never thought such things could happen to me at one point – getting free shit - and today I even made a deal on I will get paid over having free tickets if I write about the upcoming SWANS show. I’m still not planning to be a writer cause that profession is lame. It’s not good when your sacred thing what you like to do for fun becomes the thing you have to do so you can buy food and keep your apartment. Job seeking is hell especially if you feel like you are a stupid 16 year old who have to prove himself to adults in a cruel second world country with a fucked up market. But since the gates are open now I only care about the upcoming national record swap where I wanna throw money out on everything. First THIS HEAT lp? Gimme that shit along with some NEU!. Guess I will just find and buy some Kinks records or if Sid Vicious will be with me NEW ORDER or BUZZCOCKS. But This Heat and Neu! are music that is fucking weird but simple cause I can understand it as well. Like SWELL MAPS. Music from instinct. Those tribal kinda sounds and noises of our surroundings, let it be nature or just a flat with dripping water pipes and a bouncing heating system. When music surrounds you and it’s not just, ‘this-is-the-beginning, here-comes-a-bridge, that’s-the-chorus-and-that-was-the-end’. When each titles just mark the minutes and songs are blending into something cohesive when music is a tool like actual music not the lyrics but the sounds and they are used for representing nature, people, feelings, everything. These sounds help me appreciate many other bands who are more classical in their music writing method. There I could find in some of their rhythms and brief noises and feedbacks a whole world. Probably I’m projecting my beliefs on these minor moments of sounds but I don’t care about truth when it comes to be entertained because I can believe in my own universe. It’s like being under the influence of mushrooms you just believe it and you feel happy then cause it seems so real like not just being different but another. I fell in love with aspirin feast while I toke a stroll to a grocery store this night through the rain soaked streets. Had no idea they were around at the end of the 80s and begging of the 90s. The 90s seem to be miss known in many heads including mine to be all about over the edge shitty bands in almost every music and acts like born against saved the whole decade. As always when you know something universal sooner or later it will turn out the only thing you should be sure about is you are dumb as fuck. Good thing about our culture is it’s full with hidden gems that makes everything fresh and permanent cause something that has been recorded even before we were born could sound like something that haven’t been existed until now when we hear it. Just take DEATH. They have appeared from out of nowhere and with their amazing we do what we want because what we do is right-ish jams they made us wonder what if this would always appeared in the history of punk thus it would have formed the then future now past bands into different directions. But they just become the best band that has never mattered cause we have forgotten them and when they came back everybody was enthusiastic like it’s a fresh band that just got together a year ago.
Not just trips on substances make me siked but trips to buy veggies. I went to the market for Jerusalem artichoke and brussel sprouts and beets, food I’m obsessed with nowadays, in beautiful spring weather. That made me feel like, everything is kinda shit lately in many parts of my life but sometimes if I change my focus and other aspects of this whole it could make me appreciate life then even if sometimes i feel sad but i see something or encounter something while I’m out that is just good, like a painting on a wall, a tree, how the clouds are, someone who does something, something that belongs to nature but included in the universe and I just feel that after all this life and this planet is not that bad. Because there are those little things you just lose yourself in them and even if it's just for a moment then it feel infinite. And I just felt right buying all the food and walking around and taking the tram and thinking about what will I cook and how I will send my mom the recepies, along with my ideas on the movie that is the topic of our weekly film club. I was listening to the first Sods lp while I was on my way din gall these and it just grabbed me. I spent a lot of time the week before reading about how lame Iceage is. I know, I have seen them and then the magic just disappeared even if i got hooked before the first lp came out and a bit after it as well. But SODS is just sooo better and not just because they are earlier or because unlike being a novelty act they could morph into SORT SOL and still could keep their goodness but because even Minutes To Go is just a brilliant record that ranges from sharp kbd punk hits through weird fucking cold punk that sounds like machine man are gifted with hearts and now bothered by the reality of how being a human kinda sucks screaming for their desired love and there’s a desperate dub-ish song that is more violent and desolated than SPECIALS’ Ghost Town but about the same topic and it just stomps my head with the feelings of this record is still relevant and it ends with so many crazy guitar jams what are just worming in my brain around and around forming an infinite sign. So good. There are too many records that by time could grow on me and the treatment i get from weird music that makes me appreciate music in the different way like MEAT PUPPETS’ Up on the Sun which is like proto DESTRUCTION UNIT’s second era krautrock in the desert but unlike Destruction Unit, Meat Puppets go nowhere, it’s just perfect sitting around getting high music (inserting a quick critique here I like Sonar better than Void, I mean the record, not the band cause i love VOID over everything but pizza) and WIRE’s Chairs Missing. I always was Pink Flag and later dance-able era but yesterday finally I sat down and realized what kind of amazing thing Chairs Missing is.  Used to with being that weird lullabies song like Sound on Sound or crazy hit like Gilbeau. Feels like sooner or later every good band’s every record will just turn out to be right. But I don’t wanna like jazz era SACCHARINE TRUST. And i was listening to fucking classical music lately but thanks to the guitar sound of KORO i couldn’t really dig myself into it too deeply. But I’m kinda afraid I’m getting close to understand jazz and i hate this. Cause naturally I think we need things to hate on. Some opposite to what we believe in. I don’t wanna wind up like that dude who thinks there are two kinds of music good and bad. But it’s not true, you never should become objective when it comes to things that could be liked or hated. That’s the end of everything either to not care enough cause professionals are cold headed or not care because who gives a fuck. Irony and apathy are the enemies for sure.
I rather be that guy who thinks SUPER WILD HORSES is amazing and their debut lp is still on my playlist. It’s a record only could be made by girls. So cool, so dreamy and it gives us a sight into a secret better world. With all their small moments that they share you can feel people are really there, their secrets, their lives, their nights with falling asleep in coats half drunk at parties on dirty sofas and that slashing cloudy guitar sound that embraces me while I swing on my sofa hitting my thigh and smiling into my beer. The fucking spring is here and I have to have it in my head as well.
also I think I’m doing too much stuffs cause last night I have seen Get Him to the Greek and it felt like I’m watching some Hanake movie and I almost cried.
My friend just put out his solo d-beat record ( http://diskobra.bandcamp.com/ ). This is the end.